Thoughts on security

It's so easy to say "I want to do this" or "I want to live here," but then when it actually happens you find yourself needing a bit more time to think about if it's "right."

I mean, I have a real job now (which I should be proud of) and it supplies a certain level of security. However, I sometimes feel like maybe I oversold how important security is. Trust me, I'd rather have a job than not, but I keep thinking about how constantly changing and evolving my life was in college.

If I didn't like a class, I only had to be in it for ten weeks. I was in a sorority so new experiences, friends and environments were literally given to me. Now, if I want change, new friends or a new experience I have to work to get it. That's a big adjustment.

In the end though, I think it's better to live by the rules/schedule you make. In this path there are no credit requirements or forced end dates. I can determine my own path.

I keep trying to remind myself that as scary as all these transitions can be, I have it really good. I have a great job that pays the bills and keeps me on my toes. I have supportive friends and family. I have good health. 

I bet that soon I'll be looking back at how freaked out I was and thinking about how silly I was being, since obviously everything turned out for the best.